People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost. - H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
There were times when I used to think about what would happen if the pani puri slipped from my hand and made a mess on the floor. There were severe times when I would dread about situations where I overslept and missed an exam. Then I realized I have people called roommates in my life. They would clean the mess on the floor. What about the exam? I know for a fact that they won't go into the hell hole alone. That's how friends are right? They might enjoy a chocolate all alone, silently, behind your back. Although, if they are called by the principal or HR, they will make sure you stand outside the office the whole time. Sooner than later, I realized that I wouldn't gain anything by hallucinating situations created by my mind. Overreacting was the parent of these situations. These were times when I was lost in the world created by my subconsciousness.
Today, for a change, I was lost in the real world. It's 10 times worst than "my world". So, I decided to talk to my brother who was on his phone. "I don't know where I am heading", I complained. "Why don't you make up your mind? Just decide a destination and enjoy the journey", my brother said, making sense after a decade. I was glad at least someone was listening! "Well, I know where to go. I am not able to figure out the path yet." I tried to explain to a 15 year old. He looked up his phone and said, "Do you want me to tell you about this app called Maps?". I wanted to write a mail to Google to develop an app for common sense. Instead, I chose the easier task, COFFEE.
I am having mixed feelings about the feelings I have these days. Sometimes I think I've had enough, but I am not someone who gives up that easily. Sometimes, I don't know how to predict things because I am too scared to make a mess in my already messed up life. While sometimes, I want to roar, like a champion, but then I realize that I haven't achieved anything yet. As I finish my coffee, on that thought, I dial my BFF's number. "I want you to help me understand why my anxieties have anxieties", my first statement to her. Trusting that I am not drunk, she said "Did you hear about Ananya's breakup?". That moment I realized that a problem's solution can be another problem. If you are lost in the real world, find ten more people who are lost. Everyone in this world is fighting their own battle. If doing that doesn't work, chocolate will.
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